Real Christianity 2

So that is what I want Real Christianity, A Christianity where God is all. Is that too much to ask? No I think it’s too much to do! The thing is I want really to do this: to serve God with everything in me but I love this world too much and the sin of this world . . .

The sad thing about this is I know exactly how to get out of this pitiful state of misery and that is to do these two basic things: Pray and read the word of God! This is the answer the Bible gives us too  . . . I can’t find the applicable scripture now but I’ll insert it sometime. So why don’t I just do what I am supposed to do( bible reading and praying)? Uhm I’m lazy and not a little  . . . ENORMOUSLY. I’d rather read other magazines that don’t even pertain to Christianity or ill read books on Christianity but it is all just knowledge and not experience. That is also one of the huge reasons I am where I am . . . I am not trying to boast in myself but I do know a lot more than the normal person about Christianity, its doctrines and the Bible. But I’d rather know all these things than be in ignorance.

So this is my trouble I know too much and experience almost nothing.

Real Christianity

I am a Christian, or I am supposed to be one. I call myself a Bible Fundamentalist: that is the Bible is my only basis on what I believe about God and Jesus and everything else about Christianity.

Just a note to the readers . . . I am going to have allot of mistakes and grammar faults in my blog but please be patient with me.

So yes where am I now? I would rather ask the question where is God in my life? That is where I am now nowhere! I am sort of in a state of floating waiting for something amazing to happen. This might sound CRAZY but I want God to come and wake me up from this terrible dream!! At this moment I totally hate this life because I know it is so meaningless. It is meaningless because I know that God is the only meaning to anyone in this universe and all of creation.

How do I know that God is not in my life well?

 1John 5:2 By this we know that we love the children of God, whenever we love God and keep His commandments.

I so totally don’t keep His commandments . . . I keep my own. I am such a huge sinner and such a huge hypocrite. Many people that know me (or at least think they know me) think I am a saint and such a good person . . . well I'm not. I want to be this:

“They call us to renounce the world, and differ in every temper and way of life, from the spirit and the way of the world: to renounce all its goods, to fear none of its evils, to reject its joys, and have no value for its happiness: to be as new-born babes, that are born into a new state of things: to live as pilgrims in spiritual watching, in holy fear, and heavenly aspiring after another life: to take up our daily cross, to deny ourselves, to profess the blessedness of mourning, to seek the blessedness of poverty of spirit: to forsake the pride and vanity of riches, to take no thought for the morrow, to live in the profoundest state of humility, to rejoice in worldly sufferings: to reject the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life: to bear injuries, to forgive and bless our enemies, and to love mankind as God loveth them: to give up our whole hearts and affections to God, and strive to enter through the strait gate into a life of eternal glory.

This is the common devotion which our blessed Saviour taught, in order to make

it the common life of all Christians.” – From A serious Call to a Devout and Holy life by William Law.

So I’ll post again now . . .